Stored Up Blessings- Confirmation From Spirit.
- Konni Owens
- Aug 14, 2015
- 3 min read
Amazing Angels,
Today was Magic of Epic proportions. The clarity at which I was being given insights started from the moment I woke up and is continuing still. I have been waiting to share with you all day and I'm glad that I waited because it just kept getting better as the day went on.
You know the session we had, I believe it was the one when we were told that our group was officially 44. When Heather Strang shared with us that sometimes we will be guided and nudged in a certain direction only to find out that it wasn't at all what we thought it was going to be. We'll have full body YES and amazing ideas and then find out that, that wasn't it. And we were reminded that all is happening FOR us. Well that is what is happening for me and I must say it is so beautiful and so much more easeful and abundant than I was "planning."
This morning I woke up and had an epiphany. See on Wednesday I stayed up really late and worked on my grant and I put together a care package for Janet. I gathered all the things that I felt I needed to leave her with and brought a huge bag that I had received at my employee appreciation day at work. I was really excited to give it to her and I had even told her the day before that I was going to see her. Well I lugged this bag downtown only to find out she was not there. Her friend was there so I left it with him and asked him to give it to her. He told me that she should be back sometime that day. I went and checked on her at every break and on my way home and she wasn't there. I checked again yesterday and today. Still not there. I committed to not taking anything personally and to let it be what it was so I was curious but not worried or obsessive. The nervous excitement was actually me worrying in a different way about how I was going to finish my legal affidavit and my grant by Monday after I had committed to helping the Visually Impaired guy from work move on Sunday. And I even started to worry about what would happen if I got it, how was I going to do all of it.
I had gathered all that fear that night and packed it into a literal "return to sender" package and it freed me. I was able to eloquently get my affidavit completed with ease, the things I had been missing literally landed on my desk. I found forgiveness for the defendent in my case, I thought she had stabbed me in the back (she had) but I realized it was just a role she has to play. I came home organized my docs and I'm sending that huge package off tomorrow as well.
Here's my epiphany. This grant, Janet, the building...none of it was "IT" but merely a priceless gift. What I had done was what I always do, I always start projects that are out of reach when I'm overwhelmed looking for the magic fix. Usually I neglect what is truly important because this "magic fix" will fix everything I then come tumbling down and become very depressed. Not this time. All of that was a beautifully orchestrated way for me to distract myself from the legal stuff because I was getting overwhelmed and do the things I needed to do to get out of that space. I'm not giving up my dream, I just realized that now is not the time.
Right now Spirit is showing me that I get to "play" I get to focus on my family and on taking care of myself. I get to enjoy the fruits of my labor and rest easy knowing that WTF is safely in it's cocoon so I can just enjoy. It was like instantaneous confirmation from Spirit that I had received the message. I got an unexpected sum of money from work, I got to work on my course writing project all day and I literally get to enjoy life from here on out. I have not been able to say that for a very long time.
Conscious Action and Surrender...I get it now Heather. I totally get it. And it is so easy and abundant and beautiful.
Namaste, KO
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